Mute Muse

Thoughts are shattering here and there. There is no one definite thought. It’s full of one bunch of memories that keep enter and exit, it doesn't really exit but it chose to stay there and it plays like a playlist, so many memories and you never get tired of playing it over and over again. When you have this specific feelings you just can’t really get from it like that it stays there and it keep coming and go. I don’t know where I stand now and how much time do i left to feel this memories but I feel like its forever, I don’t know because I don’t know either what’s in my future. Forever is not really forever after all.

I'm back but with a new version of me!

Hi.. yeah i know it has been so long since i last updated my blog errr what to do im lost somewhere in my thoughts that im having a blog that I used to write on. Okay back to my life, i don't know how exactly it has been but i know it has been quite some long back then when i solely upadate about my current life. Alright, the thing is nothing is the way i was expected few years back where i used to had  many plans about my future and now everything has took different path and am just going with flow  now.

Well, go back to 2014 

the year I will not forget in my entire life because it has taught me something I didn't realise for sometime long. The year where I met wonderful good people and they did influence my life im living right now in 2015. The year where I met one special person whom gave me so much to remember. The year i bought a new d5300 nikon camera and that is where everything started. And the most important part of 2014 is all about that special person I ever met in my entire life.

And now in 2015, August 2015

9th aug I registered myself at USM( Universiti Sains Malaysia) to continue my undergraduate studies Bachelor in Science(Biology), has been one week now, since I am doing PJJ(distant studies) it doesnt give me much impact on my career right now because distant studies is all about self study. At this juncture of my life I know what I am doing right now is for myself apart from family and etc. 

And I hope everything goes smooth and well planned in its order.. 

(never stop learning, because life teaches you every second)

2014 you will not forgotten

Things are different now.. this is not what I expected earlier.. this year has been the most unforgettable year for me of course.. negative and positive equally controlled my life over this year.. There is one point where I lost control where about my life heading too..noticing it was going out of control.. and in july I found an answer for my solution.. but it was not just an answer for my solution but its more than that... Whatsoever I'm continuing my life like nothing happen. That's life forget and move on as simple as that.

I am a feminist.

Sexual harassment bothers me. Even in the mildest forms, it bothers me deeply. You know why? Because I can't do anything about it. Trust me I've tried. I have been trying for years. But there is really very little you can do about it. My pondering, reading and conversations about this issue only magnified the problem. I was now facing a bigger monster: Sexism. And guess what? I can't do anything about it.
And so, I have decided to channel my years of frustration and dreams of change into a title. I am now a feminist. Always have been actually, but now I will begin calling myself a feminist.


I have always had strong opinions about feminism, but never before have I been so scared. Scared for my safety and future. Scared for the kind of world I will be raising children in. Scared that I will grow old with the words "If only.." gnawing away at the back of my mind.


So a few days ago, I put my thoughts into action, and my feminism ball has started rolling. And I hope that I will make a difference. I hope you will too.

Pissed Off !

I'm just getting pissed off with my colleagues. She seems to give me more pressure even though she understand my condition. The thing is she doesn't want to accept the fact that she cannot keep on doing something that don't involve her part and she have to realize the reality! She cannot put on her pressure on me just because she thinks that I be will okay with everything she wants me to do. Ohh please I'm a human too I do have feelings please do respect it. Oh my... and I was tired handling this kind of situation! Oh LORD please give me strength to go through this..

RATIONALE

Well after all.. he is just meant to be my friend and that's all.. nothing more or less.. let it be constant, and lets hope for no changes happen on that! yes I mean it.. yet sometimes I doubt my ownself if I could just stand still without making any changes or things will turn out either.. Why just not I run away from everything, throw away those unwanted feelings and let it be the new me?? Why not... Ouuuhh how I wish for something like that..

Today is my Birth-Day

And today is my 23rd Birthday! The numbers always indicating that we are old enough to enjoy BIRTH-DAY! well its just so mean after all.. What I'm expecting today is a message from a someone that had been closed with me few years back and I wonder if that person still remember my birthday actually. My heart still hoping for his message but to be rationale he forget me that's the truth. Thinking about how close we have been my heart ache every time thinking of it. He is the one I always looking for when there is a problem, he is the one that brings the best out of me, and he is the one I always miss to be, he is the one I would see everyday its almost everything he is.. but now he forget me just like that. I still miss that person so hard, just I wish I could throw away all the feelings I had for him once but still I don't have the courage to do so because deep inside my heart I'm still missing that person actually. After all what he did to me I am still missing that person how insane that would be? I don't know why I'm being so ridiculous when its come to him. One thing for sure he influenced my life that much. Well let it be if it is meant to be, I don't want to dig it anymore, as today on my birthday I would to see the new me!  No more regrets and harsh feelings because we don't know what is written in our faith. Have a blessed day everyone! and Happy Birthday to me! :)

How Apple Succeeded, While Others Failed

When Apple designed their first store, they made sure that over half of it was dedicated to what they called, ‘solutions’. The store wasn’t stacked ceiling to floor with inventory, instead it was awall-to-wall space of discovery .

While most retailers were showing people what they had in stock, Apple was showing people what their products could help them become. The Apple strategy was built around Steve Jobs’ understanding that, “people don’t just want to buy personal computers anymore, they want to know what they can do with them.”

That single insight sums up the key to Apple’s success. What Jobs recognised, was that sales, growth and market share are a side effect of understanding what people really want.

He didn’t give people reasons to choose. He gave them reasons to crave, covet and to belong.

How could you do that for your customers?

44 Things We’ve Said to Our Kids to Get them to Eat

Please?

Try holding your nose.

See how the fish is pink? Princesses love pink. Salmon is what princesses eat! It’s princess food! Yay princesses!!!

If you don’t eat this, I will take the dog for a walk and never come home.

You know how sometimes a needle is so sharp you don’t even feel it? That’s what this chili is like. It’s so spicy that you won’t even taste anything.

Try the swordfish. It’s like white salmon.

Try the cauliflower. It’s like white broccoli.

Try the tofu. It’s like white-ish chicken.

Try eating. It’s how you survive.

I went through full labor and then had a C-section in order to bring you into this world. I almost           died  for you. You owe me.

If you don’t eat it, then I will. And then I’ll hate myself.

Don’t you love Daddy?

Let me ask you one question: Why must you torment me so?

It’s lemon sole!!! Isn’t that a fun name? Sole is a fish. You like fish, don’t you? Don’t you love salmon? Well, salmon is also a fish! Sole is like salmon’s cousin, in that they both swim in the ocean. They swim around and are cute. It’s really good. It’s even better than salmon! You like fish. You’ll love this. I promise. Just think of it as salmon. Or, okay, chicken. It tastes a little like chicken, too. Oh come on, you love chicken. This is breaded and fried, just like the chicken we make. It’s like that, but even better. Think of it as chicken and salmon mixed together, and you love both of those things, right? Don’t you? You don’t?

Pretty please?

If you don’t try this, Santa won’t come.

The doctor said you need to eat this.

There’s no more ketchup. Heinz stopped making ketchup last week. It was in all the newspapers. A newspaper is something you read.

Don’t eat?  No treat.

Let’s think about this logically for a minute, okay?

One bite one bite one bite one bite one bite one bite one bite one bite.

Remember the Mac and Cheese you loved at that restaurant in Charleston? This is the exact same recipe, from that restaurant’s cookbook, written by the exact same chef who made it for you then. And now I’m taking his exact instructions and recreating the exact same meal for you right here at your table in New York. How cool is that??

How do you know you won’t like it if you’ve never tried it? And yeah, I just said that.

If you try this, we’ll talk about getting you that Polly Pocket Cruise Ship Set that will sit on our living room floor like a hideous speed bump for the next five years until I throw it away one day when you’re not looking.

Let’s play a game: Pretend your life depended on finishing this.

Quick! Look over there!

Do you enjoy this? Is that why you do this?

You like watching your mother cry? Is that it?

Your sister finished hers.

You think Tony Stark leaves any kale on his plate?

You liked it yesterday!?

You liked it when Aunt Lynn made it for you.

Your little chicken is lonely and sad and will only be happy when he’s reunited with his potato friends in your stomach.

Man cannot survive on pasta alone.

What do you think tomato sauce is made out of?

Don’t you want to live for a long time?

Don’t you want to outlive your parents?

Do you want the dog to get fat? Because she should not be eating this much hamburger meat every night.

I’m counting to three.

I mean five.

I mean ten.

I loved this meal when I was a kid.

I hated this meal when I was a kid.

Don’t look at it, just eat it.