Mute Muse

Thoughts are shattering here and there. There is no one definite thought. It’s full of one bunch of memories that keep enter and exit, it doesn't really exit but it chose to stay there and it plays like a playlist, so many memories and you never get tired of playing it over and over again. When you have this specific feelings you just can’t really get from it like that it stays there and it keep coming and go. I don’t know where I stand now and how much time do i left to feel this memories but I feel like its forever, I don’t know because I don’t know either what’s in my future. Forever is not really forever after all.

I'm back but with a new version of me!

Hi.. yeah i know it has been so long since i last updated my blog errr what to do im lost somewhere in my thoughts that im having a blog that I used to write on. Okay back to my life, i don't know how exactly it has been but i know it has been quite some long back then when i solely upadate about my current life. Alright, the thing is nothing is the way i was expected few years back where i used to had  many plans about my future and now everything has took different path and am just going with flow  now.

Well, go back to 2014 

the year I will not forget in my entire life because it has taught me something I didn't realise for sometime long. The year where I met wonderful good people and they did influence my life im living right now in 2015. The year where I met one special person whom gave me so much to remember. The year i bought a new d5300 nikon camera and that is where everything started. And the most important part of 2014 is all about that special person I ever met in my entire life.

And now in 2015, August 2015

9th aug I registered myself at USM( Universiti Sains Malaysia) to continue my undergraduate studies Bachelor in Science(Biology), has been one week now, since I am doing PJJ(distant studies) it doesnt give me much impact on my career right now because distant studies is all about self study. At this juncture of my life I know what I am doing right now is for myself apart from family and etc. 

And I hope everything goes smooth and well planned in its order.. 

(never stop learning, because life teaches you every second)

2014 you will not forgotten

Things are different now.. this is not what I expected earlier.. this year has been the most unforgettable year for me of course.. negative and positive equally controlled my life over this year.. There is one point where I lost control where about my life heading too..noticing it was going out of control.. and in july I found an answer for my solution.. but it was not just an answer for my solution but its more than that... Whatsoever I'm continuing my life like nothing happen. That's life forget and move on as simple as that.

I am a feminist.

Sexual harassment bothers me. Even in the mildest forms, it bothers me deeply. You know why? Because I can't do anything about it. Trust me I've tried. I have been trying for years. But there is really very little you can do about it. My pondering, reading and conversations about this issue only magnified the problem. I was now facing a bigger monster: Sexism. And guess what? I can't do anything about it.
And so, I have decided to channel my years of frustration and dreams of change into a title. I am now a feminist. Always have been actually, but now I will begin calling myself a feminist.


I have always had strong opinions about feminism, but never before have I been so scared. Scared for my safety and future. Scared for the kind of world I will be raising children in. Scared that I will grow old with the words "If only.." gnawing away at the back of my mind.


So a few days ago, I put my thoughts into action, and my feminism ball has started rolling. And I hope that I will make a difference. I hope you will too.

Pissed Off !

I'm just getting pissed off with my colleagues. She seems to give me more pressure even though she understand my condition. The thing is she doesn't want to accept the fact that she cannot keep on doing something that don't involve her part and she have to realize the reality! She cannot put on her pressure on me just because she thinks that I be will okay with everything she wants me to do. Ohh please I'm a human too I do have feelings please do respect it. Oh my... and I was tired handling this kind of situation! Oh LORD please give me strength to go through this..

RATIONALE

Well after all.. he is just meant to be my friend and that's all.. nothing more or less.. let it be constant, and lets hope for no changes happen on that! yes I mean it.. yet sometimes I doubt my ownself if I could just stand still without making any changes or things will turn out either.. Why just not I run away from everything, throw away those unwanted feelings and let it be the new me?? Why not... Ouuuhh how I wish for something like that..

Today is my Birth-Day

And today is my 23rd Birthday! The numbers always indicating that we are old enough to enjoy BIRTH-DAY! well its just so mean after all.. What I'm expecting today is a message from a someone that had been closed with me few years back and I wonder if that person still remember my birthday actually. My heart still hoping for his message but to be rationale he forget me that's the truth. Thinking about how close we have been my heart ache every time thinking of it. He is the one I always looking for when there is a problem, he is the one that brings the best out of me, and he is the one I always miss to be, he is the one I would see everyday its almost everything he is.. but now he forget me just like that. I still miss that person so hard, just I wish I could throw away all the feelings I had for him once but still I don't have the courage to do so because deep inside my heart I'm still missing that person actually. After all what he did to me I am still missing that person how insane that would be? I don't know why I'm being so ridiculous when its come to him. One thing for sure he influenced my life that much. Well let it be if it is meant to be, I don't want to dig it anymore, as today on my birthday I would to see the new me!  No more regrets and harsh feelings because we don't know what is written in our faith. Have a blessed day everyone! and Happy Birthday to me! :)

How Apple Succeeded, While Others Failed

When Apple designed their first store, they made sure that over half of it was dedicated to what they called, ‘solutions’. The store wasn’t stacked ceiling to floor with inventory, instead it was awall-to-wall space of discovery .

While most retailers were showing people what they had in stock, Apple was showing people what their products could help them become. The Apple strategy was built around Steve Jobs’ understanding that, “people don’t just want to buy personal computers anymore, they want to know what they can do with them.”

That single insight sums up the key to Apple’s success. What Jobs recognised, was that sales, growth and market share are a side effect of understanding what people really want.

He didn’t give people reasons to choose. He gave them reasons to crave, covet and to belong.

How could you do that for your customers?

44 Things We’ve Said to Our Kids to Get them to Eat

Please?

Try holding your nose.

See how the fish is pink? Princesses love pink. Salmon is what princesses eat! It’s princess food! Yay princesses!!!

If you don’t eat this, I will take the dog for a walk and never come home.

You know how sometimes a needle is so sharp you don’t even feel it? That’s what this chili is like. It’s so spicy that you won’t even taste anything.

Try the swordfish. It’s like white salmon.

Try the cauliflower. It’s like white broccoli.

Try the tofu. It’s like white-ish chicken.

Try eating. It’s how you survive.

I went through full labor and then had a C-section in order to bring you into this world. I almost           died  for you. You owe me.

If you don’t eat it, then I will. And then I’ll hate myself.

Don’t you love Daddy?

Let me ask you one question: Why must you torment me so?

It’s lemon sole!!! Isn’t that a fun name? Sole is a fish. You like fish, don’t you? Don’t you love salmon? Well, salmon is also a fish! Sole is like salmon’s cousin, in that they both swim in the ocean. They swim around and are cute. It’s really good. It’s even better than salmon! You like fish. You’ll love this. I promise. Just think of it as salmon. Or, okay, chicken. It tastes a little like chicken, too. Oh come on, you love chicken. This is breaded and fried, just like the chicken we make. It’s like that, but even better. Think of it as chicken and salmon mixed together, and you love both of those things, right? Don’t you? You don’t?

Pretty please?

If you don’t try this, Santa won’t come.

The doctor said you need to eat this.

There’s no more ketchup. Heinz stopped making ketchup last week. It was in all the newspapers. A newspaper is something you read.

Don’t eat?  No treat.

Let’s think about this logically for a minute, okay?

One bite one bite one bite one bite one bite one bite one bite one bite.

Remember the Mac and Cheese you loved at that restaurant in Charleston? This is the exact same recipe, from that restaurant’s cookbook, written by the exact same chef who made it for you then. And now I’m taking his exact instructions and recreating the exact same meal for you right here at your table in New York. How cool is that??

How do you know you won’t like it if you’ve never tried it? And yeah, I just said that.

If you try this, we’ll talk about getting you that Polly Pocket Cruise Ship Set that will sit on our living room floor like a hideous speed bump for the next five years until I throw it away one day when you’re not looking.

Let’s play a game: Pretend your life depended on finishing this.

Quick! Look over there!

Do you enjoy this? Is that why you do this?

You like watching your mother cry? Is that it?

Your sister finished hers.

You think Tony Stark leaves any kale on his plate?

You liked it yesterday!?

You liked it when Aunt Lynn made it for you.

Your little chicken is lonely and sad and will only be happy when he’s reunited with his potato friends in your stomach.

Man cannot survive on pasta alone.

What do you think tomato sauce is made out of?

Don’t you want to live for a long time?

Don’t you want to outlive your parents?

Do you want the dog to get fat? Because she should not be eating this much hamburger meat every night.

I’m counting to three.

I mean five.

I mean ten.

I loved this meal when I was a kid.

I hated this meal when I was a kid.

Don’t look at it, just eat it.

The perception of a relationship....

If you feel attracted to a handsome/ pretty looking person, and you finally end up in a relationship with them, is that true love? If you had given a less attractive person a chance and the same time and attention, would you have eventually coupled up? 

Can love really be blind? Is it possible to fall in love at first sight with a unattractive person? Is it hypocritical to love someone who is innocent and loyal when you're a player yourself? Is it possible for the loyal person to accept your past flings?

Is love, and attraction enough to make a marriage work? Can marriage work without love? Will a married couple eventually fall in love? Will they fall out of love? Can they still remain together long after the love is gone?

Are you in a relationship now? Why did you couple up? Were you friends before? Did you immediately feel attracted to him/her? Did you suddenly develop romantic feelings? Do you know why you love him/her or do you just feel that way?

Is love rational at all? Or is it something that shouldn't be analysed; like why we yawn when we're bored? Okay, that last bit was just random.

Out of Ideas..

Actually I've a lot in my mind to pour in words just that I couldn't find the exact words to replace all those things in my mind to pour out in one short. If you believe there is happiness while doing small things you should enjoy yourself because nobody knows when is our life ends. By right now I am with my mixed feelings writing this down in a way where everyone would understand..

WHAT A MAN!!! HAISSHHH

My Drink is Smarter Than Me

So someone had the brains enough to draw Einstein in your morning cup. This detailed picture is enough to startle anyone thinking of taking a sip. Sure he's an iconic figure, and the face is kind of quirky. But we really don't like it when our drinks look at us- or stick out their tongue.

Money isn't everything, but Money gives you everything

Little did i know, if you want survive in this world.. first of all you would have to work then only you will get paid.. if you not then you will find some other way to work your own in this matter you will be the boss and pay your staffs under you.. If you see those two thing i have mention above is similar, you work for money.. Yes money isn't everything, but money gives you everything you need in this world yet the reason for you to dream big.. Nevertheless to say money is the very basic thing in human's life.. Money plays an important role in everyone's life.. ain't you can't resist it because the truth lie in it'... Every now and then money is the biggest complication of every human's life..

Now back to my life, I always have a dream to buy this and that but the problem is money that all you need.. as i said yes money is biggest complication in my life here.. yet i never fail to dream big.. I always have a dream no matter how many times i failed even if i never tried something still I have the little hopes deep in my heart saying that i'm not done yet, this little hopes always been my motivation for myself to never get tired and keep on doing until I become someone one day.. I know i will one fine day maybe tomorrow perhaps believe me there's nothing harm to dream big if you have little faith in yourself..

Sincerely from, 

Avi Arden

It's an Inspiration for me!

Sunday January 20, 2013

How a single letter changed my life!

By CELINE WAN

IT has been said that words can make or break a person’s day.

In my case, a single letter had ruined mine.

When my class teacher handed over my report card, I kept staring at it in disbelief for a letter “D” had tainted a report that would otherwise have been filled with a string of A’s.

As I checked which subject was responsible for ruining my first examination of the year, I was even more shocked to realise that the subject English was the cause of my “D”.

This poignant experience occurred in 2008. During that time, I had just transferred from a Malay-medium school to an English-medium school.

Everything was a big change — from the study system to the school environment.

However, to nearly fail my best subject has made me realised that I was deluded to regard myself as an outstanding student in English.

I was also dumbfounded to discover that my examination would be assessed based on an empty booklet that I was supposed to write in.

Searching for answers

After acknowledging the fact that I almost failed English, I began making it a habit to write.

In my first attempt to write a long essay, I became stupefied.

I never realised that presenting my inner thoughts in an empty space would be so difficult.

When I held my pen and stared at the empty piece of paper, I realised that I was not ready to creatively translate my imagination into words.

Disappointed, I thought, “How could I find such difficulty in expressing my inner voice when a blank piece of paper portrays the fact that such possibilities are endless?”

The entire situation was exacerbated when I discovered that I would not be promoted to the next grade the following year if I were to fail in any subject, what more failing a subject as important as the English language!

Hence, desperate to do something about this blatant “D” before my finals, I tried asking for help.

The common advice given to me was to read regularly.

I personally felt that time was severely limited for I was actively involved in extra-curricular activities and had other subjects to focus on.

However, I complied and eventually picked up the reading habit.

In the following examination, the improvement was nowhere apparent.

This time, I changed my strategy in reading; instead of just focusing on what was written, I diverted some of my attention to how it was written.

In other words, there was a shift in how I analysed written passages.

It was then that I viewed writing in a whole new light.

It’s all about style

After I started collecting books from the same authors, I noticed how each author had his or her own unique writing styles.

I knew then that through practice in writing, I too, would find and develop my own distinctive style.

Why is that so? In my opinion, it is because writing is analogous to allowing others to engage in your thoughts.

With writing, it is also an avenue for you to be in full control of sharing to the world something as intimate as your thoughts.

Therefore, it is no wonder that everyone’s writing styles are so different; everyone’s mind works differently.

However different a person’s writing style is though, they still share something similar if it is well written.

Some of the few common factors I have noticed are their ability to be emotionally moving, thought-provoking and engaging one’s attention.

With these three elements, the unique art of conveying ideas helped bring stories to life.

Through my personal findings, one way of bringing life to words is through vivid descriptions.

It was only after reading in a different perspective did I realise that my failure as a writer was due to my ignorance towards my surroundings.

It was due to my lack of skill in describing my experiences in minute details.

With this in mind, I edged my way to the writing desk.

Blank pieces of paper looked less daunting now and after several attempts to describe the mundane sights and sounds that had previously evoked no imagination on my part, every nameless detail was now amplified and presented its beauty to me.

New ideology

By the end of my academic year, it was not the “A” in English that I was most proud of, but the habit of appreciating the myriad of simple pleasures people have more often than not disregarded.

To me, my change in character as an observer has elicited the greatest sense of gratification.

In fact, it is with this ideology that I plan to carry on my future endeavours and daily life.

The letter “D” has changed the way I view the world.

Gone are the days when my mind was filled with scattering thoughts or staggering ideas when trying to pen anything down. I have learnt to organise my thoughts and jot the findings down when required.

The harmful letter may have once ruined my day but it has saved me from the world of ignorance.

I am glad that I have embraced what was once failure and hardship.

Thank you dear letter, you have saved and improved my life.

> The writer is currently on a gap year. She will be pursuing a degree in Chemical Engineering at the University of Cambridge this October.

Plan Oh Plan

I have so many plans in my head but I am not sure if they could be realize.

Healthy Breakfast kick start of the day..

Better butter bread toast let d butter melt well on the bread

Orange Juice

Half boiled egg

A bowl of cereal with mix straw & blue berries

Have a healthy breakfast everyday peeps! Adios' :)

I love Baked Beans...

I love baked beans. They are to me the epitome of my breakfast. My favorite style is smoky, sweet and tangy but not all ready-made beans fit what I want or what I am looking for. And the best part is… they are easy to make! 

p/s : Here is the recipe for tomorrow's bfast 

          2 slice of bread toast 

          1 fried egg

         Baked beans and the sauce

What If..

If I agreed with you we'd both be wrong.... 
am I right?

What I learned from Life of Pie

In the film Life of Pi, Pi says the tiger was the only reason he survived. The reason he stayed alert, his sole companion and at some points his purpose in life. But as important as the tiger was in his life, they parted 'unceremoniously' and without a goodbye. They couldn't communicate, and with no means of clarifying their relationship, they had to leave things as they were. No miraculous story of the tiger never leaving his side or growing old together. No bollywood scene of the tiger turning back one last time before walking away reluctantly. The tiger belonged in the wild, and Pi had to return to reality.

When I have to part with my tiger, the reason I survived, my sole companion and at some points my purpose in life, I shall remember that at the end of the day, I shall have an amazing story to tell. =')